Я слышу голос, и он говорит мне: «Дойди до Рая!» (c)
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What if you told someone that you have a problem, lets say, that you think that you are too short and someone would tell you "why dont you use that machine that breaks your legs and then you become an inch taller? its so simple!" Lets think about the fact that it costs a lot, that i wouldn't be able to walk for several years which leads to dozen other problems, or the fact that my family would think i am insane. Does it still worth it? May be. Then, lets see the other things which may make my life a bit easier ( not solving the problem but... masking it. A temporary salution.) I can wear heels, platforms or hang out with short people. Anyways, it will make it much better than not doing anything at all. What if I am just not ready for breaking my legs? or if it somewhat a bit... uncomfortable to do (what an idea!) ? But that someone would constantly tell you that YOU NEED TO BREAK YOUR LEGS! Do they think I am stupid and dont know that breaking my own legs would be the most effective solution to the problem? OF COURSE I KNOW IT.
Will I get up toworrow and do it? perhaps not, perhaps I ll have to use the temporary solutions for a while before making such a huge decision. And even if I made it, it doesnt mean that it is right to do it this moment.
But apparently its too hard to understand because the people you love constantly tell you "break your legs and stuff will be cool", "stop complaining about being short!" "stop self pity! Go and break your fucking legs". Sometimes it feels like they want me to suffer even more than I already do. Curious, really. Yes, lets say, I am short and I hate it with all my heart. OF course I would complain about it to myself, to my family. Of course I would want a Grand Solution. But what if its not as simple as drinking a cup of water? Breaking your legs is aFUCKING HUGE DEAL so why dont you stop telling me to do it and stop complaining and realize that I AM trying to prepare myself for it and it Does take time, so instead of telling me the same thing over and over, just try to support me in this temporary solutions and may be help me to find new ones if you care that much. That would be at least productive. But if you can't do it, then I guess we shouldn't talk about this problem at all, and I am sorry if I ever bring it up in front of you. Sorry for feeling safe to share my pain next to the people I love, sorry for not being able to keep it to myself because it hurts, sorry for hoping that you can and want to help, and for not realizing that the only Right Decision, therefore, the Only Decision, is breaking my legs period. Sorry for my personal hope that there are things which can make my life just a bit better while I am getting ready and trying to find the right time for a Grand Decision. Sorry if your support and patience is too much to ask.
What if you told someone that you have a problem, lets say, that you think that you are too short and someone would tell you "why dont you use that machine that breaks your legs and then you become an inch taller? its so simple!" Lets think about the fact that it costs a lot, that i wouldn't be able to walk for several years which leads to dozen other problems, or the fact that my family would think i am insane. Does it still worth it? May be. Then, lets see the other things which may make my life a bit easier ( not solving the problem but... masking it. A temporary salution.) I can wear heels, platforms or hang out with short people. Anyways, it will make it much better than not doing anything at all. What if I am just not ready for breaking my legs? or if it somewhat a bit... uncomfortable to do (what an idea!) ? But that someone would constantly tell you that YOU NEED TO BREAK YOUR LEGS! Do they think I am stupid and dont know that breaking my own legs would be the most effective solution to the problem? OF COURSE I KNOW IT.
Will I get up toworrow and do it? perhaps not, perhaps I ll have to use the temporary solutions for a while before making such a huge decision. And even if I made it, it doesnt mean that it is right to do it this moment.
But apparently its too hard to understand because the people you love constantly tell you "break your legs and stuff will be cool", "stop complaining about being short!" "stop self pity! Go and break your fucking legs". Sometimes it feels like they want me to suffer even more than I already do. Curious, really. Yes, lets say, I am short and I hate it with all my heart. OF course I would complain about it to myself, to my family. Of course I would want a Grand Solution. But what if its not as simple as drinking a cup of water? Breaking your legs is aFUCKING HUGE DEAL so why dont you stop telling me to do it and stop complaining and realize that I AM trying to prepare myself for it and it Does take time, so instead of telling me the same thing over and over, just try to support me in this temporary solutions and may be help me to find new ones if you care that much. That would be at least productive. But if you can't do it, then I guess we shouldn't talk about this problem at all, and I am sorry if I ever bring it up in front of you. Sorry for feeling safe to share my pain next to the people I love, sorry for not being able to keep it to myself because it hurts, sorry for hoping that you can and want to help, and for not realizing that the only Right Decision, therefore, the Only Decision, is breaking my legs period. Sorry for my personal hope that there are things which can make my life just a bit better while I am getting ready and trying to find the right time for a Grand Decision. Sorry if your support and patience is too much to ask.
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30.07.2013 в 17:07