Only for so long i can keep silence, deny and avoid the obvious. I have to say that its been not only terribly hard but pretty pointless. Even though i tried to forget and to change my mind, i found myself in the same place where i ve been before - with a shy smile on my face and his amazing eyes. And a smile. And i am falling back to the day when i was anticipating our meeting with all the possibilities in the world and all the hopes of the universe.
But now.... there is not much to look forward to. One day, in many years we will meet and may be even talk, but its so far from now. And yet, i feel that its not over. Shouldnt be... just because it wasnt the love with the first sight, it doesnt mean that we are through.
I am always afraid to even think that and yet my lips a whispering it by themselves anytime i think about him. They say "i love you". And there is that weird warmth inside, and blush, and realization of how unreasonable it is. I tried to change it.tried to forget. And still, his image doesnt escape me.