Because for some life is so much ponies and butterflies. Some dont get annoyed and disgusted every morning, dont feel humiliated by everyone. Every. Fucking. Person. Even though they may not know it. But every fucking one of them right now is happier than you just because they dont have to feel what you feel. Not having food, shelter, or knowing that you will die in 24 hours feels better than the desire to rip your own heart out because every breath is painful, every sound you make is lousy, every moment you see yourself you know you are cursed. And most importantly, you know that you didnt deserve this suffering.